Lately, Leah has been crying every time I leave her at daycare. Usually the teacher has to pry her from my arms and I end up leaving in tears. When I return to pick her up I am always told that she calmed down immediately after I left and had a great day. Then all the way home she will tell me about all of the fun things she did all day.
After a particularly tearful goodbye one day last week, I was surprised to hear that Leah had an outstanding day after I left. I got Miss Chatty into the car and on the ride I asked her,
“Leah, don’t you have fun at daycare?”
“Yeah!” she replied enthusiastically.
“Then why do you always cry when mommy leaves?” I asked her.
She thought about this for a moment and then said, “Because it just hurts my heart.”
If only she knew how much that thought hurt MY heart! I never want to be the cause of any hurting for my child, especially her little heart. I guess the only thing that I can do is enjoy every second that I spend with her and take comfort in the fact that she does enjoy daycare once the initial shock of separation wears off.
I know this is a good thing for her, but a part of me just wanted to take her home, and never leave her ever again. I mean, if she really wanted higher education, I suppose I could move into her dorm, right?