Leah on Missing Me

Me: Are you excited for your sleepover with Mana?

Leah: Yeah!

Me: Are you going to miss me?

Leah: Nah. I really need a break from you for a day or two!

Me: I see. What about Daddy?

Leah: Nope. I need a break from him, too!


To Nest, Or to Rest?

That is my dilemma every day. I have a very strong urge to scrub every surface in my house with cleaning fluid until it sparkles and could not possibly contain any dirt/germs/finger prints. However, I don’t have the energy to match the urge. This is very frustrating!

My solution has been to try and get at least one thing done in my house each day (just house stuff, this doesn’t include my usual list of homework and Leah stuff!). It helps, but I really want one day where my entire house is clean and sparkly. And stays that way forever and ever.

*Sigh*…Is it January yet? I am so ready to NOT be crazy anymore! 🙂

Leah on Chattering

The other day I was in the car with Leah and she was chattering on and on. I was totally with her in the beginning, but when it became apparent that I would not get a word in edgewise and that half the time I had no idea what she was talking about, I have to admit that my mind began to wander.

All of a sudden I caught a snippet and found myself saying, “Hold on! What did you just say?”

Leah replied, “I said that I am gonna stop chattering so much, because I can’t even hear myself think!”

My sentiments, exactly! Love her.

Leah on Praise

Last weekend Leah had her first dance class of the year. Dave and I ran some errands, but then came back to observe through the television monitor they have in the changing room. You can also hear what is going on through the closed doors.

We listened as the teacher told another little girl that she did something really well. That is when Leah spoke up.

“Um, I was doing the exact same thing!” she said loudly, with just the right amount of attitude in her voice.

“Yes, Leah, you did a great job, too.” the teacher responded.

And Dave and I died laughing, getting us looks from other parents in the changing room. That’s my girl!

Leah on Chores

Leah: What’s that on my floor?

Me: It’s your dirty clothes, because someone forgot to go put them in the hamper.

Leah: Oh. Who?

Me: You!

Leah: No way, that’s not my job. It’s your job!

Me: No, it’s your job. I have enough jobs.

Leah: I have enough jobs, too. It’s my job to snuggle, pick up my toys, be funny, sing songs, and play!

Perfect Enough For Us

Today is Dave’s and my 3 year wedding anniversary, and what a 3 years it has been. I feel like we have both grown up so much since we made it official, and I know that I have learned a lot about love and commitment.

So many young girls spend hours daydreaming about the perfect wedding day. That was never me. I spent my time daydreaming about the perfect marriage. I pictured myself as a perfect goddess of domesticity married to the perfect husband, living in the perfect home with our perfect kids.

I can’t say that vision has come true. My marriage is not perfect, because it is better. Life would be boring if everything was perfect! We have had many ups and downs, but all of them has led to a stronger conviction that we are right together. One of the things I have learned since getting married is that love is a journey, not a destination. Marriage doesn’t end at the wedding. The wedding is just a party to celebrate the life you are about to begin. It is really a bon voyage as you start on your lifetime journey of love and commitment.

During the first three years of our journey there have been a few bumps along the road, for sure. There have been times when I thought to myself that it is just too difficult, or that maybe it is just too hard for such different people to live together and be a strong unit. However, I recently came across this amazing quote: “The perfect marriage is simply two imperfect people who refuse to give up on one another.”

That is so true, is it not? When you are getting married you need to think long and hard because you are not only committing yourself to loving and living with the other person for the rest of your life, you are committing to never giving up on them. You are committing to the journey.

That being said, I am so glad that I made that commitment to Dave. Neither of us is perfect. We drive each other absolutely crazy! But who else would love me enough to put up with my craziness, and vice versa? Each cross roads that we come to, we decide that no matter which way we go, we will go together. And every time it seems we have reached an impasse, we figure out a way to make it work, and we come out stronger in the end.

Dave, I love you, and I love celebrating the day that we began the journey of marriage together. I may not have spent time daydreaming a fairy-tale wedding, but it was still a perfect day. A picture says a thousand words, so here are a few of my favorites:

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A Slice of Life

Sometimes I wish that I could record in writing every moment that I have with Leah, so that I can take it out and relive it when she is grown and leaves me. But, when I attempt it in my head I find that I can spend an hour just describing the way the light bounced off one curl for a split second. It would take me an entire day to tell you how her laughter sounds and even longer to describe how it makes me feel. I could spend eons on each feature of her beautiful face and all of the expressions she configures with it.

And so, I share with you the conversations we have, for they are absolute, and concrete enough to share. They are a slice of life with Leah, and for the rest that I can’t put on paper? I will have to be content to store those memories forever in my heart.

When I grow old and I start to forget what I had for breakfast, I will always be able to recall Leah’s long eyelashes, her tinkling four year old voice, and the feeling I get in my heart just at the sight of my beautiful daughter.